Wed, May 31, 2017
This year did not turn out as I wanted it to turn out, in fact for every direction I wanted things headed, they went toward the opposite direction. Go right! Nope? I guess left will do. By the way, I’m not actually talking about lefts and rights; what I mean to say-in more literal context- is that you will experience things of the unimaginable. You will be shocked and overwhelmed at how much is happening all around you and it will be stressful. Things might be going on at home, with friends, at school, and most definitely with yourself. Who knows, maybe this isn’t new to you, but I swear no matter what you will be on a roller coaster headed straight up and things will get tougher (fun fact; I’ve never been on an actual roller coaster, I’m 15.) A lot of things will be out of your control and I want you to know that it’s fine, if you cannot control it just accept it. Don’t dwell. Just control and do what you can and for gods and your sake pick yourself up. Maybe right now as I’m talking to you I’m really just talking to me and maybe that’s why I’m so angry like I wish I would’ve been wiser at the time but I am now and I feel no matter what advice I give to you, you won’t actually learn it or understand it until you go through these things yourself. Let me also express my sense of loss right now, I’m suppose to give you advice but there is just so much that I want to say, actually no I want to throw it all at you, violently throw at you, but the problem is I don’t even know where to start and wow I am rambling. Let’s start with friends. Pick them wisely, understand them and have them understand you. Don’t fight over silly things and don’t be petty, talk to each other and work things out because wasting friendships for things that don’t really matter is stupid. Know that is okay to move on, that friends may fade away and groups might break apart but especially know when it is worth fighting for. If you are unhappy with the friends you have and if they constantly put you down than don’t tolerate it. Walk away. Be kind to your friends and be considerate of their feelings and of all the people around you and be there for them because you know what it’s like to not have someone there for you. It’s okay to not always have someone by your side, being alone is different than feeling lonely and if you feel lonely search within yourself for what voids need filling and make sure you fill them yourself until they are bursting of fullness. You’re growing, you’re changing, and you should watch yourself blossom and you should appreciate the beauty of it. You will experience loss and sorrow but you will also experience joy and happiness and you should absolutely treasure those moments. Moving on, school wise, get your shit done. Honestly. Don’t be lazy and don’t allow yourself to give any less than your best. Yes, I just read that off a poster, but it’s true. You will regret not giving school your all, so don’t play yourself like that. Reach your full potential for the small things like completing that essay so you can reach your potential in life. I’m not even exaggerating. Be organized and find self-discipline to do your work even on your worst days. I’m running out of time, so I suppose I’ll sum things up. This year, I want you to kick some booty hole and to have the best of times.